A few weeks later, slate-coloured skies and a warm breeze envelope the auditorium at the Toronto Reference Library in downtown Toronto, as it fills with hundreds of attendees in purple T-shirts. It is the Canada Peace Summit, a full day of panels, conversations and dialogue designed to “engage Palestinians and Jews in dialogue.” The event was organized by Toronto Friends of Standing Together, a community of Torontonians who are supporters of Standing Together, an Israeli social grassroots movement aiming to end the occupation and achieve peace and equality. Alshawwa is standing just outside the auditorium, looking sharp in his suit, Arwa beaming at his side.
Alshawwa is very clear about why he’s here to speak today. “It’s our story, our cause,” he says. He says Palestinians are often pushed out of the frame when talking about their very futures, and he doesn’t want to waste an opportunity to claim the conversation. He also sees it as an opening: nothing is as polarizing as talking about Israel and Palestine, and people are divided, splintered, and far apart. This is an opportunity to bring them closer together under a massive metaphorical tent of people who care deeply about the future of Palestine and Israel.
“People are standing on the edge,” Bashar says. He has a plea and invitation to anyone who may be reluctant: “If you want to make a change, here is a partner for change. Come on board.”
It is mere minutes before Alshawwa is due to take the stage, but first, there’s something he wants to do. He excuses himself with a flash of a smile. “I’m going to go make a membership at the library [for] my kids.”
Moments later, Alshawwa takes the stage. He is nervous but speaks clearly and emphatically.
“I’ll start by the words weakness — weakness, helplessness, oppression,” says Alshawwa. “These are not just emotions. They ache like a wound, a pain that seeps into your bones and your spirit. My experience has never been easy. For most of my life, I believe I was powerless.”
For the next few minutes, he holds the room’s rapt attention as he tells his life story — and his refusal to give into the anger and rage that consumed him after he was shot in 2014.
“I was born a Palestinian refugee from Gaza, outside Palestine, and had a childhood without a childhood. I was without stability. I don’t remember a school I stayed in or a childhood friend. We were always on the move. We were chasing safety. Then came a chance: I returned to my homeland after the Oslo Accords, only to be shocked by a brutal reality: occupation, violence, death, injustice. At that time, I did what anyone would do, and I tried to tell myself I was like everyone else — that I can, I can, or I could, cope with that. Then a sniper’s bullet shattered that. I was shot by an Israeli soldier. I couldn’t walk for a long time, and at that time I was spent with rage, pain and most of all, helplessness. I was helpless to move. I was helpless to reject the injustice. I remember being trapped in that feeling until the day I had my biggest achievement, when I had my beautiful daughter, Luna. And for the first time, everything changed in that moment… I found myself rejecting helplessness, rejecting weakness, rejecting the very oppression that had defined my life. I knew I had to try to fight for a change, for hope, not just for me, but for that beautiful kid. Since then, I have spent years building bridges, forming partnerships, trying to convince the status quo and rejecting the oppression. And I have to prove myself and to others that change is possible, that hope is not a lie. And then, unfortunately, this war started. And when this war began, and again, I lost loved ones, family, friends, uncles, aunts, nieces, nephews, colleagues in Gaza, the pain returned… My body collapsed at that moment. My gallbladder burst from distress and grief, and after waking up from the surgery, I faced the same question, the same test: would I return to being that helpless child, that victim, or would I remain the Bashar who chose to act, to never stop working for peace, for justice? Today, we are all facing that same test as individuals, as groups, as communities, societies, Jews, Arabs, Muslims, white, Indigenous. And this is a challenge, at the end, to our humanity, to our values, to everything we stand for. But we have a choice. Remember that we have a choice, a chance to create a change, to say no to helplessness, no to injustice, and yes to action, yes to responsibility, yes to protecting not just ourselves but the world that we all share. So change is possible if we want it, and that truly is our choice. Thank you for being here.”
The room hangs with silence for a moment after Alshawwa stops speaking. Then, the crowd rise to their feet, and Alshawwa stands amid a wave of thunderous applause.